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[svetlana van buren.]

svetlana van buren
s o m e w h e r e i n t h e m i d d l e

it's something
it's better then nothing

-----whoever said a mothers love is like no other, had not met the mother of Svetlana Van Buren, and it's a true shame. It's amazing how a mother would give up a child, and keep the twin of that baby. Their are women on this planet who want a baby, and would treat their baby like an angel, yet people like her mother, people like Lillivaye Andrea Van Buren get blessed with a child, a baby to call their on, and they push them aside. Finding a girl who looks like her at her school, a girl with her last name, was freaky. More what was worst was hearing her mother didn't want any of them, and she couldn't handle two kids, plus their father was not going to help. So she made up this fucked up story that the other twin had died, when she was really living with her mother's sister. But really both girls grew up motherless. Vannah had an aunt for a mother, an aunt who left to Vegas, and an uncle who raped her. While Svet had to raise herself, with a mother who black mailed her, and with a father who cared more about his golf score then he did her. Sometimes the people who deserve babies will never have a kid, and other times bitches get what they do not want and give them up. But in this case, a bitch of a mother separated two sisters at birth. Two sisters who found each other at the age of eighteen. Life is truly un fair. At least for Svetlana, and her twin Savannah it is.

-----and if you stop to think about it, this was really the worst time for Svetlana to find out about her younger twin. She has her problems with school, if it were not for her father's money she probably would have been kicked out. Her grades go from bad to worst in a matter of weeks. But how can she keep her grades up, not only does she have to deal with her sister, who she is getting along with perfectly, but she also has her own problems that involve her and her ex best friend, and the boy that she is still in love with. She doubts she ever get over him, but she knows that she probably will never be with him again. Though him calling every ten minutes does make it hard to forget him, and all the pain he caused her. See her ex best friend and her ex boyfriend, who where her best friend and boyfriend at the time, cheated on her. He said it was because she was making him wait until marriage and he couldn't, that he was weak. Of course Svetlana is not stupid, she might be failing school, but she has common sense and she ended any type of relationship she had with the two. But now her ex best friend has become some type of weird psycho, sending her letters threating to kill her. But truthfully she doesn't scared Svet.[/color]
-----but that does not mean that Svetlana would mind a sister. Actually she is glad she got a sister, so many times growing up she would wake up to a bunch of care takers, and nannies who spoke Spanish or French, that Svetlana could not speak to. She felt so lonely, and would always pray that a baby would grace her, a child that she could raise as a little sister to keep her company. Or at least a dog, that her mother won't give away. You know thats her biggest fear know, being alone. And thats what she felt when she lost her closest friend, and the love of her life. Then she saw this girl who looked like her, it was like going into the twilight zone, it was like seeing herself in a mirror with a different outfit on. It was something she had always wanted a sister, a sibling. Someone to tell all your problems to, yet since she did now know her at all it was like talking to a stanger. A girl she was forced to know because they have the same blood running through their vains. But yet she grew to like Savannah, and every time they chat she feels like she is growing closer to her. Lana even let Vannah stay with her, since she needed a place to stay. Which is not bad, see Svetlana is pretty popular, she had grown up here and does know much of the people. Yet living in a mansion all by herself is sucky, and inviting people who sleepover to get the feel of a mansion is not really the best. Yet this is a girl, who needed to live somewhere, not stay over a night.
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-----these endless thoughts hurt Svetlana, her past is far from perfect and it's hard for her to forget it and move on. These are thoughts that she never stops thinking about, maybe she should just get over it. But would you get over any of it. But, Svetlana is lucky, because she has something that takes her mind of off any thing, with is one of her favorite past times, shopping. Though Svetlana is great at designing, and making her own clothing their are times when you just have to get up, and buy shit from other designers. And thats where she was at, the mall, spending as much cash as possible to ease her pain. She had two American Eagle bags, and three Hollister bags in her right hand, and one small chocolate milkshake in her left hand. She had invited a friend to go with her, but her friend ended up canceling because her aunt gave birth. So Svet decided to go alone, and shop until she dropped. Then the eighteen year old girl stopped a store with a very familiar name, Forever 21, she took the last sip of her milkshake before throwing it in the trash and going into the busy store. When she got in she began searching for a cute top, since she mostly got jeans from American Eagle, and only one shirt from Hollister. She also began humming along to the song that was playing on their radio, which was Swagger Like Us by T.I , Jay - Z, Lil Wayne, and Kayne West, ft. M.I.A. It was a good song, they had played it at the club she had gone to the night before..[/color]

-----the small orange shirt, with a brown vest over it, which would go perfect with the skinny jeans she bought at American Eagle, and at home she had the cutest orange heels that would match it. She pulled on out, and made sure it was a small. Then she went over to the fitting rooms and put it all together, she looks really nice, the shirt fit just right, and the jeans gave it a sexy touch. She probably would wear it to like some type of party, or maybe even to school. It wasn't nearly hot enough to go to a club with. But it was pretty cool to go to school with. Svetlana took the clothing off, and put back on her clothes.Svet got the jeans and put them in the American Eagle bag, she put the shirt over her arm. She looked at herself in the mirror and sighed. She has always been confident, but after she was cheated on she felt like she needed to step up. She then got out and kept on looking, it's always good to find as much cute cloths as you can. Svetlana then got a right thought, since her twin probably could never buy any of this since she grew up poor, why not buy her something. So the auburn hair girl began looking for something for her twin. .[/color]
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